Awake My Soul

Hello Summer 2010, how nice of you to finally come.  It doesn’t seem right that freshman year is over, maybe because it wasn’t as fulfilling as I had hoped it to be.  But I am so thankful that summer is upon us.  This past semester has been a draining.  I’m enjoying being home for now.  I mean sure there are things I don’t like about being home.  I miss just doing whatever I want.  I miss having my own space.  I miss just going down the hall or up or down a couple floors to hang out with people.  I miss the schedule of school. But love it at home.  I love my friends more than words could describe.  I love sleeping in and not having the pressure of school.  I love just goofing off and finding ways to have fun.  I’ve finally built up the courage to release some secrets.  It’s almost silly how hard it is for me to do.  But it seems that my friends aren’t as disappointed in me as I thought they were going to be.  I’m so happy that I have their support.

So I’ve been out of school for a week and a half.  So far my days of consisted of sleeping in, computer time, cleaning, and hanging with my buds.  I’ve also been working and am still trying to find a babysitting job for the summer *crosses fingers*  Tomorrow I’m auditioning for a play.  I’m not really sure what I want out of the experience yet, I guess I’ll have to wait and see how it goes.  I’m also planning on taking a summer class.  I’m looking forward to being semi-busy.

Last night I went to my first ever concert.  It was simply amazing.  Mumford & Sons has quickly become one of my favorite bands after one of my good friends introduced me to them about 2 months go.  I really couldn’t have asked for a better first concert.  It was in the TLA which is a standing room only hall, which I think made the experience that much more awesome.  I have this absolute love  for being around people who are truly enjoying themselves.  I’ve always loved going to midnight openings of movies.  There is just something about sitting in a dark theater with a couple hundred people anxiously awaiting the start of the movie.  See most people that go to a midnight showing are huge fans.  Most of them having been waiting for this moment for months or years.  You kind of form a bond with your theater, because you know that everyone there truly wants to see that movie.  And I experienced the same thing last night.  It felt so amazingly powerful to stand in front of a band as hundreds of fans stood around me screaming the lyrics back at them.  The excitement was palpable.  I loved that the band is still fairly unknown.  I think the more well known an artist or actor or any type of performer gets, the more jaded they get… which is sad.  The band, well both bands, seemed so amazingly genuine.  I can just imagine how they used to wonder if people would ever like them or listen to them.  And it must feel so completely amazing to perform in front of your fans.  I also realize that I’m a complete sucker for live performances.  There is just something about people exposing themselves on stage that draws me in.  At one point last night I almost started to tear up.  I was just so swept away in the excitement and the music and everything.  Maybe it’s because I’m a performer myself and I understand how difficult it is, but always how simply wonderful it feels to stand on a stage.  I’ve also become much more attached to music over the past year or so.  Hearing a good singer perform is like the best thing in the world.

Well thats about it.  I’m excited for this summer.

Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine. Together we can see what we will find. Don’t leave me alone at this time for I’m afraid of what I will discover inside.

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